Are you a little girl I was meant to get to know? Or was your journey complete after only 17 days?

Hello I'd like you all to meet my little sleeping princess Lilly-May Angela Masterson born sleeping at 38weeks on the 17th May 2018 .

At 23 weeks and 6 days I went into labour and gave birth to my beautifully formed little boy.

I had had dreams that I was expecting twins but whilst I felt there were 2 I could only see 1.

At my 20 week scan I expected all to be normal, just like it had been my 2 previous pregnancies. The lady scanning said she couldn't get clear view of everything she needed to and

I had a reasonably complication-free pregnancy, and was given a due date of 13th October 2008 at my 12 week scan.

This year marks the 5 year birthday of my daughter Bella who was stillborn.

Myself and my fiancé became parents to our son Noah George Yates on the 19/09/2018. Unfortunately he was born sleeping at 41 weeks.

The day began like all the rest,

I stroked my bump and took a breath

Then pains got worse but I stayed strong,

Though in my heart the pain felt wrong,

On 30th October 2017 the day started off like any normal day I was 34 and a half weeks pregnant and in my last week of work before maternity leave.

We had been struggling to fall pregnant.

On the 13th March 2018 my world fell apart. On the 12th March I started having stomach cramps, which the GP assured me were braxton hicks. I was 33 weeks 4 days when they started.

I’ve always been exposed to death, working as a palliative care nurse you think you can handle any situation, we are described as being as strong as steel.

Friday evening going into labour at 11:00pm on the way to the hospital with contractions every couple of minutes...so excited..

My day today has been so sad but happy. Our baby girl Rosemary was stillborn in April 1961. My husband and I were 22 at the time and very naive.