The day I lost my son, I lost me. I lost a part of me, everything changed. My thought process, how I saw myself, how I dealt with my own emotions.

I spent a whole 3 weeks with my baby until I finally let him go to his place of rest, all these photos, memories, moments spent, are hard to get over.

Our little boy arrived a bit early due to placenta previa - undiagnosed by two GPs. He weighed 3.5 lbs He would have been the first baby boy to be born in our extended family.

When I was first told I would need to deliver my baby I was horrified, but after going through it, for me it was the most natural way and I am so grateful I got to meet him and hold him.

From that day my life would never be the same. Part of me had died. My plans and my future had changed. Nothing would ever be the same again.

I love you so much my darling Leo, mummy will never forget you or the times we had together.

Spare a thought for the dad. He will be hurting more than you know and no doubt more than he will admit.

We will always remember the little things he used to do, and how his personality shone through. He will always be our "wee fighter".

I hope you're up there having an amazing play date baby O. We miss you every day.

My tears have dried but my memories never fade.

My beautiful baby boy was born on 21st May weighing 1lb 4oz I couldn’t believe how perfect he was.

On the 1st of March 2017 you were born, I never got to hear you cry, I never got to feel your breath on me.

I left his room untouched for the days that I feel I need to be close to him. The pain of losing a child cannot be explained, only experienced.

I find I am Pregnant, and I am terrified, and I am surprised, I don't know what to do. 5 years without a whisper of pregnancy and here it is when I wasn't even trying.  But I knew from the second I picked up that test that I loved you.