Jorgie was long awaited, my Fiance and I went through 2 years of IVF to conceive her. I have ‘unexplained infertility’ although I have had one fallopian tube out as well.



We had one fresh cycle of IVF and two frozen embryo transfers. Jorgie was our third time lucky, she was conceived on our third go on the 26th of July 2018, I must of done at least 15 pregnancy tests and still couldn't believe it. My heart was full for the first time.



Apart from the regular side effects of carrying a baby I had a fairly normal pregnancy, I did have a partial low lying placenta but it was never really a cause for concern apart from amended duties at work and that I had to have a c-section to deliver which I wasn't really too bothered about.



16 weeks passed and we found out we where having a girl, we did a gender reveal with a pink firework truly over whelming one of the best nights of my life, to know I was going to have a mini me to be my best friend was the best feeling.



Months went by and every month was a milestone for me the longer time went on the safer I felt, I thought I was 100% in the clear in terms of anything going wrong, her nursery was ready and so were we.



The morning of the 2nd of March 2019 came I was 34 weeks, I had a scan 2 days previous and everything was totally fine, it was 3 days until I got my c section date things where exciting and perfect.



Then on this morning I realised I hadn't felt the baby move since I'd been up, Jorgie did have quiet days so I wasn't too worried, I had lunch and still nothing so charlie my fiancé tried talking and singing to her & still nothing.

We went the hospital they couldn't find a heartbeat, so they did an ultra sound and it was confirmed Jorgie had passed away. At that point our whole lives shattered in front of us and there was nothing we could do about it.



I delivered Jorgie that night via c-section she was born asleep at 8.50pm weighed 4lb15oz and she was perfect. I had suffered a Fetal-maternal haemorrhage, in short baby's blood was lost into my system, usually caused by trauma. In my case it was fluke and had 0 symptoms. It was that rare my consultant had only seen it twice. The next few days we stayed with her in the butterfly suite Arrowe park hospital and this was truly a blessing to get that time with her. But saying goodbye and parting ways was extremely hard. They provided us with a professional photographer ‘remember my baby’ who works voluntary for people who have still born babies. These are amazing and something I will cherish forever.

I post pictures on my social media and have done since day one, I will not let Jorgie's memory fade. Her funeral was held on the 18th of March and our baby girl was laid to rest. Nothing prepares you for the heartache that follows losing a baby, I know personally I will never ever be the same and my heart will never be full again but Our Jorgie will be with us forever and she will never ever be forgotten. Our perfect first born, Our angel.